But I am.
Crabby I mean :-).
But I'm trying not to be.
So mostly things are going Ok, even fine.
The PROBLEM is that after weeks of being weak, my brain went from semi somnolent to mostly awake.
I was very much in crisis/survival mode for weeks and weeks. This last week I have felt better though I still crash if I try to do too much.
And guess what, I am tempted to do too much. BECAUSE...
There is a lot to do!!
My wonderful husband and kids did a fabulous job keeping the house running during my convalescence. But if there weren't things falling to the wayside, I wouldn't be needed, right?
There are medical and dental appointments to make, forms to fill out, corners to organize. We have winter clothes to either buy or unearth from the basement. Missing clothes are ... somewhere.
Kevin's mom spent a long time working on matching our SOCKS yesterday. We had SO MANY unmatched. Huge blessing but it just shows that a few things fell along the wayside.
Thank you, Kevin's Mom!!!
In addition, we've had emotional upheaval due to some MAJOR challenges at church. I have lot of emotions about the whole situation but mostly at this point I'm just sad.
We're leaving our church and finding a new one now.
So yes, lots going on. I feel out of control because there are a bunch of projects that need done and I don't have time and I still hurt if I do too much and I have to keep prioritizing...
God is with me all the time. My natural tendency is to put people over projects. Projects aren't that important unless they affect people. Well, it got cold so we do need warm clothes for the kids. The mess can wait. Right?
And I have strong teens who can help. And younger kids who can help. It's just someone (me) needs to direct them. Which is tiring in its own way.
It's all...fine. Just challenging.